Get At Me

I've been contemplating my future lately and I am slowly piecing it together. My life is really a big puzzle. I used to have it all put together, until some bully came alone and dashed it apart, scattering the individual pieces among floors and floors of endless staircases. It makes it very hard to put it back together again, but I'm working on it. I'm learning so much more about myself along the way and about what I want and where I want to be. I'm learning what I'm good at and what I need. I'm learning that I have two conflicting sides of me: my smart side and my creative side. Both sides must be satisfied or else I cannot exist. This makes my future quite difficult to form. It's currently an idea, but it's an idea that's taking shape beautifully.

I've recently been sliding down this muddy hole into murky water. I've been helpless and insecure. Until today I guess. I have a plan. I work best when I have a plan. Because a plan gives me a direction and a purpose. I don't do very well just living, I have to be living for something. And now I know what that may be. For the time being, that is.

I'm happy.

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xoxo, Lexie