I've been listening to "Dog Days Are Over" by Florence and the Machine a lot lately, and it illuminates me. This song fills me up completely and spills out into the world around me. I'm so happy I could burst. Things have been a little bit low recently so this song is sheer magic.
I got a little bit too comfortable with a boy of mine and he decided that he didn't need me anymore. We weren't together, we weren't a couple, we didn't even make a point to see each other outside of our classes, but being duped by your own fantasies hurts nonetheless. Well, I'd been feeling awful because I decided to completely cut all ties to him and all relationships like the one I had with him. But it was after this decision that I came to the realization that I had no idea how to connect with someone on a level deeper than sexual attraction. That, my friends, is the single worst feeling in the entire world, I think. It closes you off to all contact and love from other people.
Never fear, this can be remedied. In order to readjust and recreate and refocus your life, you must start at the beginning. Once you get your priorities in order relationship-wise, everything fades into the background and you have your new focus. And generally, good things happen when you least expect them. I'm focusing right now on eating better and exercising more and I'm losing weight and I have more energy and I'm altogether a much happier person. I feel brilliant.xoxo, Lexie
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